Well Miss Chalrie was 6 weeks today!!! It feels like she has always been apart of our life and it is hard to now imagine her not being here!! This past week has has some good days and not so good days. Tuesday was particularly stressful with a 3am wake up and lots of screaming. I called Dr Dunlop and he said to increase the dose of the losec and moved my appointment forward to Tuesday next week. I started to feel like I could not manage and I how could I cope with this for the next few days let alone weeks! She then settled and had a great sleep in the afternoon and I managed to get a good two and half hours sleep....it is amazing how much better everything seems when you get some sleep!!! I can see why sleep deprivation is a form of torture....everything seems too hard and too much when you are pooped! But once I had a sleep and a shower I gave myself a kick in the bum for being miserable and I felt much brighter! Charlie is such an amazing part of our life and worth every bit of lack of sleep and stress and I would not have it any other way! So after my kick in the pants I felt confident enough to go out for dinner with two of my favourite friends! She was great while we were out and I joked to Ray that you would not think there was anything wrong. The vommitting has definately decreased and today I can see that she is less agitated, more alert and I am pretty sure I got a few small smiles this morning :-). She still battles sleep but you can blame her stubborn streak on me :-)
Monday I headed out for another 5km run. I felt quite tired and drained when I started but perked up pretty quickly. I averaged 5:45 for the 5km. Yesterday I did nothing and I will head out for a run when Ray gets home tonight. I am looking forward to the Australia day run....I am going to do the 6km Canterbury run- mainly because it starts at 10:30am so it is much easier for me to get us all organised. I have no goals for this run, just to do it, finish it and have fun! I am excited to be able to do a "race" and be part of it all again :-) Then I will aim for the Striders run in March.....depending on how I feel, 1okm seems like a very long way at the moment!!!! Small steps.......
So I am feeling much more positive that Charlie is improving and hopefully in another week we will see a big difference!!!
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Mmm. Bit of improvement, hey? All good. If I could wish for anything for you, it would be a good sleep, but that will come, of course.
I always found that fussing babies sound so much quieter and less overwhelming out-of-doors. Likewise, the view of something other than "these four walls", can brighten your own mood, even when nothing else has changed. Get over to the coast, park under some shady trees, get the stroller and sunshade out, and toddle along, stop, feed, drink, and look at something other than bubby's scrunched up little face crying at you. I did too much of the latter when Jac was a bub - I was young, didn't have access to a car, or even a stroller for quite a while. I remember well the feeling of desperation for sleep, and the desolate mood that can settle over you sometimes, when nothing looks good.
A work colleague pointed something out to me a while back. She was talking about training junior sonographers, saying that some of them were really quite grumpy when they had to go on call for the week. She said that the reason they were grumpy, had to do with their expectations. They hoped not to be called in, even though they knew they really would. She said research had shown that if we expect something to happen, it is easier to accept it, and still feel happy, when it does happen, eg. being called in when on call. Or, in the case of the baby that doesn't settle easily, being woken up a lot. I am telling you this, not because I think you are doing anything wrong, or resenting bubby, but because I find for myself, that if I have realistic expectations of what bub will get up to within a 24hr period, it is easier to take in my stride, and still get on with what I want to do, and that has benefits for both of us.
Wow, 6 weeks already. Gosh, that has gone so fast!
Nice work with the running Kit, at that rate you will have no trouble with the 10k in March.
Wait! I wasn't ready to post that yet! Blogger ate my comment!
How can you run so fast?? 6-7 min k's feel easy to me at the mo, but not 5.45's!!! Maybe I should've gone to the gym when I was still a beach-belly, too? Or maybe I've just gotten wimpy?
xx, Di.
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